"…I want to crawl out of my skin, escape my ugly flesh and be a skeleton, naked and anonymous."
Isaac Marion (via bloody-mary-queen)
"No one heals without a struggle."
"I think communication starts when words are not present at all … I think we put so much emphasis on language, actually silence is so much more important."
Marina Abramovic (via onlinecounsellingcollege)
"Without deviation from the norm, progress is not possible."
Frank Zappa (via psych-facts)
"You realize you are not alone, right? No one in their twenties has life figured out. It’s okay to be a mess. You’re living."
Things my therapist told me today that almost made me burst out into tears. I need to remember this more often. (via michaelassbendr)
"Everything appears to me to be an artificial construction of the mind. Every mark by someone else, every chance look throws everything in me over on the other side, even what has been forgotten, even what is entirely insignificant. I am more uncertain than I ever was; I feel only the power of life. And I am senselessly empty."
fiontsang asked: Hi, Leaf. I am so so glad I found you. It's really nice knowing that everyone who is suffering from eczema is not alone out there. I admire you for sharing your journey on this. I feel like you're someone I can totally relate myself with and I feel very happy. I've had severe Atopic dermatitis all my life, and it's just getting worse as I get older. I'm really afraid that it will never get better. I just can't stop feeling so depressed all the time. I'm so tired of it and no one understands. :/
How are you doing these days? It’s a very tough up and down battle with eczema. I have gone through a recent wave of depression because of the declining state of my skin. It’s amazing what an entirely different person I become when my skin is okay. I am active, happy and full of energy. I completely understand how you feel. It’s like if one thing works to fend it off for a little while it stops working and you have to start a new in your search for relief. It’s tiring, expensive and time consuming and it can leave you feeling drained and hopeless. I can’t tell you exactly how you can find relief and exactly what you can do to make it all better, but one thing I know I can say with certainty is that you deserve relief. We don’t deserve to suffer and we shouldn’t have to be strong about the pain. It hurts. It is awful and we deserve for people to understand that and take it seriously. It is however our responsibility to communicate to our loved ones how serious the pain is. Beyond the physical pain what hurts the most is people belittling my condition, belittling my pain. Even if they mean well. Anyone who says “just don’t scratch” I want to smack them. They have no idea. In the worst of my times I have wrongly thought “why can’t I have a more established disease that people actually know about and understand the gravity of” because the hardest thing is facing a doctor with all your pain on your sleeve and having them tell you it’s not a big deal, just slap some steroids on it. BUT IT’LL COME BACK AFTER IM DONE USING IT! They don’t understand. I have yet to meet a dermatologist who has had eczema themselves and truly understands. So anyway. I can only insist to you that I understand the gravity of your pain. You are valid in feeling low and depressed. You are not weak. It is an appropriate way to feel. The only thing we can do is gain strength from that fact and let it fuel our journey to keep finding relief. Thank you so much for writing me. I hope you are doing well.
Thank you so much for replying back to me. I really appreciate it, it means a lot! I can’t agree more with the things you have said.
My eczema is up and down, it’s still coming and going. Stress is one of the main factors that makes my skin flare. I just started university in September. I’m already stressing out because all of the assessments I know that are coming up and that I have to do. I don’t know if I’ll last the four years. I don’t want to give up though.
At the end of the day I suppose all we can do is be strong and not let it control our lives.
I commend you for having to put up with it for so long. I hope you are doing well too!
"And now we’re supposed to go back to our normal lives. That’s what people do. They have these amazing experiences with another person, and then they just go home and clean the bathroom or whatever."
When It Happens (Susane Colasanti)
"The reason we struggle with insecurity is because we compare our behind-the-scenes to everyone else’s highlight reel."
Steve Furtick (via an-artful-life)