"I’d try to explain that it’s not really negativity or sadness anymore, it’s more just this detached, meaningless fog where you can’t feel anything about anything — even the things you love, even fun things — and you’re horribly bored and lonely."
Allie Brosh (via hellanne)
"Happiness is the most natural thing in the world when you have it, and the slowest, strangest, most impossible thing when you don’t."
Dan Wells, Partials (via simply-quotes)
"One day you’ll just be a memory to some people. Do your best to be a good one."
"And then I thought … It’s not that I think too much, rather, sometimes I’m too aware."
Elliot Esfahanian (via onlinecounsellingcollege)
But people want to help. So they try harder to make you feel hopeful and positive about the situation. You explain it again, hoping they’ll try a less hope-centric approach, but re-explaining your total inability to experience joy inevitably sounds kind of negative; like maybe you WANT to be depressed. The positivity starts coming out in a spray — a giant, desperate happiness sprinkler pointed directly at your face. And it keeps going like that until you’re having this weird argument where you’re trying to convince the person that you are far too hopeless for hope just so they’ll give up on their optimism crusade and let you go back to feeling bored and lonely by yourself.
And that’s the most frustrating thing about depression. It isn’t always something you can fight back against with hope. It isn’t even something — it’s nothing. And you can’t combat nothing. You can’t fill it up. You can’t cover it. It’s just there, pulling the meaning out of everything. That being the case, all the hopeful, proactive solutions start to sound completely insane in contrast to the scope of the problem.
It would be like having a bunch of dead fish, but no one around you will acknowledge that the fish are dead. Instead, they offer to help you look for the fish or try to help you figure out why they disappeared.
The problem might not even have a solution. But you aren’t necessarily looking for solutions. You’re maybe just looking for someone to say ‘sorry about how dead your fish are’ or ‘wow, those are super dead. I still like you, though.’"
"My biggest fear is that eventually you will see me the way I see myself."
Anonymous (via bunnen)
"Loneliness is something I’ve never been bothered with because I’ve always had this terrible itch for solitude."
Charles Bukowski (via clvrgo)
"You can’t live in this world, but there’s nowhere else to go."
Warren Coughlin, “The Dharma Bums”, Jack Kerouac. (via timikeybones)
"You have to find the right distance between people. Too close, and they overwhelm you. Too far, and they abandon you."
Hanif Kureishi (via imaan-daar)
"If you’re about to do something, and you want to know if it’s a bad idea, imagine seeing it printed in the paper for all the world to see."
Gillian Flynn, Gone Girl (via simply-quotes)